Oy, my blog is being steadily engulfed by this Random/RealLife tag cloud at perhaps the exact same rate as my life. No doubt readability is suffering as a result. Like, seriously, who wants to read this drivel? Whatever. It’s past 2am on a Tuesday and I have nothing better to do.
So I was wrong about May, it ended even lower than it began. In fact, it was a solid contender for rolling 6 month low, or something like that. (It’s probably for the best that I don’t have actual data with which to determine such things…)
My emotional construct is perhaps exactly like Jenga. Everything is a bunch of blocks, all stacked up to make a solid structure, steadily Stackenblochen. But the blocks don’t stay that way, they get taken out, and the column of bricks starts to get weaker with ever-increasing fragility. Inevitably, that one fateful block, upon removal, causes the tower to topple over in absolute disintegration.
And taking out that last brick really doesn’t seem like it’s enough to cause that total destruction. I mean, you just took out a whole bunch of other blocks, so why should one more cause everything to fall apart? But that’s the thing, the entire sequence of removal caused the collapse – that last brick was just perfectly positioned to become, by the events preceding it, absolutely necessary to the continued integrity of the tower such that its absence resulted in chaos.
So ya, Jenga. My tower toppled over the weekend. It’s still in pieces on the floor. And I feel like an idiot because there’s no real reason, no single block is really that important, so why the hell did this happen? But I guess that’s the thing – it’s not just one brick, there’s a whole pile of them missing, and that last block was simply the culmination of a sequence that started who-knows-how-long-ago.
But whatever, I’ll rebuild my tower, even as blocks continue to disappear…
breathing fire doesn’t look good on a resume
